don’t try and understand this rant, i’m psycho

Hi, today is September 10th. Tomorrow will make it one year. If I had known that all of this would happen in the last year, I would have walked away and never, ever looked back. I promise you that.

I planned on staying home all day today. I got into my pajamas, laid down and opened my psychology textbook, only to have Tom call me and ask me to hang out. I could have said no, but since I’m dropping psychology, I did anyway. I had a good day. I was very, very happy. Even though I didn’t get to see you because you hung out with your girlfriend. Especially because you first hinted at getting my number last night, and then straight up gave me yours today. But then you ruined it and told me that secret. I wish I hadn’t begged for you to tell me. I hate knowing this. Especially today, of all fucking days of the month. kdsjgsghag, I’m grumpy. Today was sober day, anyone else would roll their eyes at me, but you said you were proud of me. Thank you. I love you, too, you are one of my very best friends. I almost told you why it bothered me, why it made me sick to my stomach. But then I would have to re-live the last year of my life in slow motion and I honestly don’t want to do that. Fuck you. I guess I was just Monday, Wednesday, Friday. I really fucking despise you. You’re disgusting. You also ruined my night, just by driving past me as we all sat in the parking lot. Don’t drive into my town. Stay the fuck away, I was here first. It’s mine, just like my virginity, which you begged for, for over 2 years. Salty for you, mother fucker.

I’m so, so happy right now. I don’t know if I’m insanely happy or insanely depressed, covering it up with happiness. I don’t know and I don’t care. All I know is that I’m switching out of psychology tomorrow and I’m hanging out with your cute ass self tomorrow and I’m getting shitfaced tomorrow night.

For the record, I stalk Anjana’s tumblr, and she is my favorite person. No lie. I know I say that about a lot of people but Anjana is my favorite person. Even if I don’t talk to her for a few weeks, she’s my favorite person. Anjana, I love you.

Bye tumblr.

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